Struggling but making a choice to push through

So I dont know where I got it but I SUCK at trying to keep a journal or a blog. I know that in school now kids are required to keep a journal. Again, where was that when I was in school?

Well giving it another go so we will see what we get...

I went running today and was supposed to run 6.5 miles. I ran 5 and then my body seriously went on strike. No worries, wasnt anything major. I just went back to the car, stretched and headed home, determined to conquer the other 1.5 later in the day. I ended up taking a 2 hour nap and not accomplishing the other 1.5 so I will be doing it tomorrow with and extra 1.5 added in just for the sake of it.

I know it may sound a little crazy but when I was running I could feel my leg muscles bunch and release. My legs felt strong and I knew I was working it hard core! I saw deer playing in a field and felt like I had the strength to be in nature with them. That I was using the Earth in a way that was meant to be. That I belonged out there, I felt a part of something. The crisp, and I do mean CRISP, 49 degree weather was cold but it kept me cool as my body adjusted to pushing itself a little further and a little further. 

I must say that even though I did 5 miles it didnt even seem remotely close to that. I put on my facebook that a year ago1 mile wasnt in my repotoire, six months ago 3 miles nearly killed me. And last week I found out that all my hard work has resulted in nothing other than a 3 lb weight gain. I was so frustrated that I wanted to quit. Go back to doing nothing and just complaining about the weight thing. Instead I said screw it! I feel better, I look better, and more importantly I am comfortable and really feel powerful when I run.

So here's to pushing through it, to running, to feeling a part of something and for making a choice to make a difference in me.

Hoping each of you has the courage to push yourself in whatever your struggle is.